amnesia

thoughtless discord
like the change in temperature 
never fearing life 
because breathing is so confusing
helpless fighter
what way are you running now?
i will follow
where ever you go

it all adds up to this
the equation of nothing
the time the clock stood still
but i don't remember
i can't remember
i won't remember
you

peaceless nightmares
that plague your heart and soul
choosing to love you
over hurting my self
my life's changing
where can you take me to?
i am calling out
will you answer me?

it all adds up to this
the equation of nothing
the time the clock stood still
but you don't remember
you can't remember
you won't remember me
anymore

wandering spirits
that chase through the hour
holding you closer
do you see my tears now?
restless sleeper
you were my only dream
i am waiting
are you ready now?

it all adds up to this
the equation of nothing
the time the clock stood still
but we don't remember
we can't remember
we won't remember us
anymore

-Fawn
Copyright:
January 28, 2002


















Sweet Dreams

I thought of you last night,
As I held off the cold.
I noticed the emptiness it brought,
Yet we were at one with this chill.
All fear was possible,
Yet easily laughed off
As I knew at once 
The warmth of your touch.
I smiled, walking,
Then laughing.
If not for thoughts of you
I would be consumed
Within the horrors of me.
If not for the touch you give,
I would die,
My whole life malnourished,
Staving off all healthy thought.
There was when I was a youth
A time to practice mindless ecstasy
Though I was never mindful
Of true happiness.
I knew not what I had and now
As many born with no recognition,
Seek that very thing.
Within my words 
My most precious thoughts crept 
Unseen.
Within my mind
My most precious words crept
Unheard.

(c)2002 David Durham

















MonGrel DoG

mongrel dog
wanders the streets
begging
taking
a meal
no friend out there
he is all alone
a cold alone
no warmth
no safety
no caress to his face
no scratch on his chin
they are distant dreams
mongrel dog
wanders the streets
finds no bed
no real rest
day after night
always half awake
forever on guard
alone
mongrel dog
wanders the streets
rips claw
as he scratches
on the screen of life
he bows in discontent
he prays in the cold rain
to wake up
from this
undreamable dream
cast out
so quickly
so destitute
nothing is so cold
so dry
so mangey
mongrel dog
unable to open
my eyes
to the horror
alone
no one
alone
cavernous eyes
stare into the dark
mirror
of a silent
humanity

(c) mikkinoname 2009


















Moonlit Solitude

Solitude
quiet serenity on a 
floating moon bridge
in placid waters
bathed in moonlight

Soft coo of birds
chirping of crickets
deep croak of frogs 
on lilypads

-Matt 
Copyright:
January 31, 2002

















LOVE

Letting
Others
Validate your
Existence

-David 
Copyright:
January 26, 2002


















I Stand

It has been a long road
between me and you.

Today I see my path changing 
it is turning away from you. 

I heart loved you 
with every breath 
in my being.  Now–
all that is left
are promises never kept–

I can no longer honor myself
by staying near you.

I see all that you can be.
But, I also see you. 
You never saw me.  
You were too busy
looking at you.

Today I will take the jewel 
that reminds me of you. 
The tiny crystal that you 
placed your essence into– 

I will travel to the forest
and sit for a time. 

I will allow myself to feel
the deep deep heart loss 
while holding you
in my hand.

Then I will kiss that sweet gem
and tell it my last goodbye.

I will stand and I will throw it 
as far away from me 
as I possibly can.

I will never pick it up again.

 
You see
this is the end.  

This is the day I honor myself 
This is the day I respect who I am. 
I can no longer do that
while holding you 
in my hand. 

Blessings to you 
Blessings to me

I move on.

Joee
(c)2009